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we celebrated cristmas in loyola memorial, sucat. rocknroll! =)

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last entry for 2010

i have learned a lot, got hurt a lot and loved a lot this year.  i hope the next's going to give me more luck specially career-wise.  like always, i have received a lot of blessings and in return, i tried living the life helping out as many bruised souls as i can (since mine's still fucked up).

i want to end this entry with something witty but i can't think straight right now. 

i just want light and love within me and to everyone around me.

famous last words:

"it was long ago since i had longed for anything and the effect on me was horrible."

(posted last year for someone. now i re-posted this for a different man.hahaa)

dear Santa

i've been a good girl this year. 

please grant my wish - i want a boytoy! harharhar

i want someone who can tame me this 2011. i need more discipline as you can see.  i think i'm ready to commit na. yihee 

thanks, Santa.  =)

 

 

 

(commercial)

let's be politically correct:

happy holidays! 
'tis the season to be jolly.

my christmas message is:

may all your new year's resolutions get done. and i love you all, equally but differently, and some more sexually than others. (channeling siege malvar hahaha)

"Isn't it funny that at Christmas something in you gets so lonely for - I don't know what exactly, but it's something that you don't mind so much not having at other times."  ~Kate L. Bosher

"Roses are reddish
Violets are bluish
If it weren't for Christmas
We'd all be Jewish."
~Benny Hill

recap.

The Good.

2010 is the year of independence.  of bigger responsibilities.  of taking care of broken souls.  of new friends.  of a different path.  of more parties/gigs, of drinking sprees.  year of the rocknroll lifestyle.  of new blog! and my 3-day hiatus.  this was the year of tring to be a lady and cook spaghetti. what a milestone.  and this is the year of having a fortress. i forgot to add my task number 2 (learn to ride a single bike) and the brazilian wax adventure HAHAHAHA (the pain is addictive, damn!)

The Bad.

this year, the major thing that bothered me the most is my financial status. but i can't leave just yet.  i miss the little money i had before i became a wandering gypsy hahaha. this year was the year of breaking hearts.  self-explanatory.

The Ugly.

this year, i became monogamous for nothing.  i still didn't take any risks.  i am still very much afraid of rejection.  i have had it (rejection) with mc and look where it got me.  so there.  i need a new distraction.

---o0o---

famous last words:

"What is struggle?  It's when you are running out of reasons why you had to hold on to something you just can't let go yet."

i think i need to go back to ya.

serendra, i miss you na.

virtual suicide

aah, such is life.  it'll try to break you every day.  so to toughen up again, i have to deactivate my facebook for a while.  someone keeps on stabbing me - unintentionally or not.  what matters is that i still have this blog to channel out my rage.  i really don't want to fill my posts with negativity but right now it's all that i have.  i need to move away from things that could possibly hurt me. that sonofabitch is nothing but a stereotype - and i can't just let him hurt me.  and he is not worth all of this.  i want madness, but not this kind.  you hear me? you are a very, very cruel man.  what did i do to deserve this? i was always nice to you, even if everyone else around isn't. so i have to move away even if it means closing up my facebook account.

btw, i am using my other fb account.  yay.  can't help it, i'm an addict.

--

"just because you are cautious enough not to fall in love and be vulnerable to someone, it doesn't guarantee you that you won't get hurt.  some can break down your walls.  others see the fun in inflicting pain on your soul.  and if that happens - 'don't give up on loving.  don't give up on your goodness - even if people around you sting'.

---o0o---

famous last words:

"I'm a sweet, sweet girl

But it's a cruel, cruel world.."

(The Vince Noir Project)

antikas mo, teh.

ang gaganda naman ng look-alike ko.nadadaan yan sa anggulo. haha

open letter

"Dear God, please spare me the drama.  I want rom-com."

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"Dear friends, believe me, I'm fine.  I could still take a bullet.  Pach Von Doll always okay. =)"

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Dear Soulmate, we still haven't found each other yet.  Next lifetime perhaps?  I'll still be waiting.  Even if in my next lifetime I get to live as a dog."

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"Dear Wincy, I'm still crazy about you.  But I have to give it up.  I get this feeling that the universe conspires because they know you are not good for my mental health."

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"Dear Muse - I may have given up on you but I still think of you as my muse.  You are still the reason.  you may not be my topic all the time but you are the reason why I drain my brains out thinking of something good to write about."

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"Dear readers, by now you already know that when it comes to writing, i am a crowd pleaser.  and I am a commentwhore as well - so go crazy on the comments! love to hear from you."

---o0o---

famous last words:

"'I do not need these valiums now that I have you."

here, there, everywhere

the Christmas spirit is already here.  too bad it's not coming on to my direction.  this year, i see the bad side more than the good side of this season.  is it really the season to be jolly?  the commotion of buying gifts, exchange gifts and the Christmas parties.  it all screams GASTOS! and then people around is gonna shove to your face more the difference of experiencing the season with a loved one. and how about the traffic due to the Christmas rush??  

Christmas used to be so fun before.  what happened?

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famous last words:

"I think I need yet another getaway."

wincy baby

now I know why I controlled myself and did not go all out on you, even if I know I could.  

so that I still have my pride left if ever you reject me. 

this means I want your respect more than anything.

(yes, more than your hot, hot body. hahaaa)