lol pic of the week

"Do not seek answers in the things you see; rather seek them from the heart and an open mind.  It will be a very difficult phase, the first part of 2012, for the blending of the old mind and new spirit, and the shift from the third to the fourth dimension, will produce some resistance, causing a wave of confusion and frustration..."

"Do not be afraid, for though the force of  Evil are strong in your sphere, it is still the Good that will triumph, for that is the natural order of things... Remember, you only need to be AWARE in order to survive."

(-Ang Suh)





Greenpeace joins Sikad Subic Anti-Coal Run

(click to see the link)





 

my valentine boys

since this year i'm still going to celebrate feb 14 as singles awareness day, i decided to treat my dinner buddies some ice cream at Maitre Chocolatier, a fancy chocolate shop and cafe in jupiter street.



it was the second night of us strolling the streets of makati because they've been looking for great restaurants for their valentine dates.  ah, yes, my dinner buddies are boys - all three of them.  and i tagged along to their (mis)adventures.  it was fun getting lost in the city.  it was fun seeing these boys doing all kinds of efforts for their loved ones.  they're just the sweetest kids =)

the ice cream treat was unplanned (a bit pricey for an urban poor like me hahahaha) but seeing them ecstatic over little things was worth it.  they actually did not know this, but for a while they made me forget that i've been feeling sick over problems for weeks.  it was a simple way of showing my appreciation for always being around.

eargasm.

Franco - Fake Plastic Trees



Her green plastic watering can for her fake Chinese rubber plant in the fake plastic earth.  That she bought from a rubber man in a town full of rubber plans to get rid of itself.  It wears her out, it wears her out.


She lives with a broken man - a cracked polystyrene man who just crumbles and burns.  He used to do surgery for girls in the eighties – but gravity always wins.  It wears him out, it wears him out.


She looks like the real thing, she tastes like the real thing - my fake plastic love.  But I can't help the feeling, I could blow through the ceiling if I just turn and run.  It wears me out, it wears me out.


…If I could be who you wanted all the time.



lol pic of the week

happy birthday, Lezlie G.

I wish the world could see what I see –

that behind her quirks is a soul that is full of life.

She is that kind of girl who offers her friendship

without hesitation, without guilt;

without boundaries and without an ending.

That girl is hard to find.

I wish the world could see what I see –

that behind her infectious smile lies a heart that is patiently

waiting for the one.

Yep, she may stumble and fall, but she gets back up

too quickly so that she won’t get to miss the next heartbreak

 I mean the next love that comes along. =D

She knows how to have fun in all ways possible.

She is your perfect buddy to be with on a roadtrip.

I wish that everyone who’s had the chance to get to know her knew

that they just met the awesomest woman they will ever encounter.

And the fact that I know it makes me feel good about it =P

That is why I’m wishing that they could see

what I had been seeing perfectly.

first gig for 2012

this is Mara, my friend.  she's the one who made those art pieces on the skate decks behind us. =)

"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has."         

             (Margaret Mead)

 

happy long weekend, beautiful people.

i may not be happy everyday but fuck it -- i'm getting my shibby shibby on! rawr

is there something like this in Manila??

photos from Germany, Russia, Czech Republic and Spain. i want to lock my promise and throw away the key.. never to be unlocked again.

did you know that “what if” is just an illusion?

a played fantasy in your head?

and it’s in your hands to act on it,

erase the question in your mind

or to keep on thinking about it

until you get lost in your outplayed daydreams.

*sigh.

“what if”.

… I couldn’t compete with that.  =(




----------000----------

famous last words:


"Hey, Nick, what would you do if you had met the coolest chick on Earth --
and you're just 22?"

(-Accidentally on Purpose)

"Look beyond this year, and

stay on track.  We are spirit souls,

eternal by nature.  We should 

never lose track of our goals."

why copy from tumblr when you can make your own??

thanks, Marc for the link to this photo. =)

glycerine

true.

sunlight, show me the way =)

kids, meet cameron ong / patience dear juggernaut

Volcanoes, The Ones Named After You

I needed sympathy

You gave me a review

I gained the power

And the need for something new

I dream of holidays

The ones named after you

Do you feel the same way too?

Do you feel the same way too?

I’ll eat the magic

And the music in your eye

Forget the logic

And we’ll never say goodbye

I dream of sunken ships

The ones named after you

Do you feel the same way too?

Do you feel the same way too?

All I’m afraid of is the lonely life

I’ve got to find myself a lovely wife

Baby, all I want is you

You really got me

Oh yes, it’s true

I have a sadness that is cold as ice

I’ve got to find myself somebody nice

Baby, all I want is you

You really got me

Oh yes, it’s true

You are my symphony

When running out of juice

You grant me powers

You’ll forever be my muse

I dream of heavy rains

The ones named after you

Do you feel the same way too?

Do you feel the same way too?

You’ll be my Guinevere

I’ll be the son of Zeus

If you’re my mirror

Then I’ll never be confused

I dream volcanoes

The ones named after you

Do you feel the same way too?

Do you feel the same way too?

All I’m afraid of is the lonely life

I’ve got to find myself a lovely wife

Baby, all I want is you

You really got me

Oh yes, it’s true

I have a sadness that is cold as ice

I’ve got to find myself somebody nice

Baby, all I want is you

You really got me

Oh yes, it’s true

12 hours of darkness

SOPA (click to visit the link)

moviemadness

Maybe 2011 was the year of superheroes and epic conclusion of books turned to films.  I wouldn’t know.  I don’t remember a lot of films released last year, and I didn’t get to watch a lot of it, anyway hahahaa.  But for me these were the standout movies of 2011:

Both films had so many facades.  They had similar textures.  And both films mindfucked me for days.

yes. we do have funky unconventional and very matipid ways of having fun, but..




#itsmorefuneverywherewhenyouhavethemoneyduhh

 

famous last words:

"The things which the child loves remain in the domain of the heart until old age. The most beautiful thing in life is our souls remaining over the places where we once enjoyed ourselves." - Kahlil Gibran

best heard from Tina Fey <3

lol pic of the week

happiness. you chase it.  =)

i am i said

"..but when someone had the guts to throw you out of his life, act like a frisbee and not like a boomerang that comes right back. life is a one-way street, baby. and it doesn't stop for anybody."

it's the little things that count.

I’m so happy right now.  So happy I must post this right away.  The air freshener in the office C.R. doesn’t smell like my hand sanitizer anymore.  Yipeeee =P

**Always find an excuse to be happy. 

How about you – what’s making you happy today?

the holstee manifesto

·     

·     

    “One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t.”

dear kuya









This was the advice an American pastor told me, almost a year ago.  I used to listen to his podcasts and learn about love, life and faith.  His podcasts were very informative and witty that I listened to it a lot of times last year.  He’s sort of my Dr. Love hahaha (since i knew him through his book that tackles ‘Lovelife’).  And now he’s getting married to a Filipina.  Yay!  I am so happy for my Kuya he found his calling and the love of his life here in the Philippines.  I wish I could meet him in person =)

milkshake

(click this to see the scene)
  
Daydream delusion
Limousine eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusion angel
I am a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Launched in life
Like branches in the river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?

yep, been looking for Jesse.

How to Complain Less and Be Happier

*taken from another blogpost

1. Change the way you think.

This is definitely easier said than done. Our brains tend to gravitate toward the negative. Much like the quote above, we are bothered first by the thorns in the rose bush instead of being marveled by the sight of the beautiful roses.

This requires a new practice of being mindful. When you find yourself thinking or saying a negative comment about something or someone, stop and force yourself to say something positive instead. Enlist the help of a cheerful friend to stop you when you complain and help you to see the positive in the situation.

2. Allow yourself to vent every once in a while.

Constantly ignoring your negative thoughts could add up. If you are really going through a rough time, don’t be afraid to share your feelings with a close friend or family member or see a therapist. Don’t feel ashamed if you need to talk through negative feelings.

3. Practice yoga.

Yoga is a great way to exercise, relax, and learn to be mindful. Yoga focuses on breathing, movement, and meditation and helps you to control your mind and body. Our minds often race in a million directions. Yoga can help you calm your racing thoughts and be more positive with your intentions.

4. Train yourself to be less judgmental.

We often complain about others because we think they are not up to our standards. Once you stop judging people without knowing their stories, you will most likely complain less about the things people do.

For example, constantly complaining about the service in a restaurant is not helpful. You don’t know what kind of a day your waiter or waitress has had or what problems are going on behind the scenes. If you put yourself in their shoes for a minute, you may be more kind and relax about the situation.

5. Make a list of things you’re grateful for.

Stopping for a minute and thinking of all the great things and amazing people in your life will probably put any silly complaints you had to rest.

6. Be the change you wish to see in the world.

Next time you’re with your friends, family, or co-workers and engaged in a complaint fest, speak up or quiet down. Depending on the crowd, either speak up to stop the complaining and change the subject to something sunnier or simply be quiet and don’t complain yourself.

7. Accept responsibility.

If something is bothering you, either fix it or accept that nothing can be done right now, so why complain? Complaining is a passive activity. Change that complaining into action to solve the problem or simple accept it and give your mind something else to focus on.

8. Find what makes you happy.

Sometimes this list can be easy, full of hobbies you enjoy. Sometimes it requires deeper introspection. Are you constantly complaining about your job? Maybe it is time to make the hard decision to move on to another job or career. Uncover what your biggest complaints are about and see if you can change the situation to make you happy.

9. Take care of yourself.

Stress and a busy lifestyle can often take over our lives and break down anyone’s positive spirit. Take time out from your life for just you. Make sure you get to see that movie you were dying to watch, take a hot bath, head to your exercise class, get a manicure, play sports, or do whatever relaxes and energizes you. It could just put you in a new frame of mind.

10. Simply ask yourself when you open your mouth: would you rather complain or be happy?

Choose happiness, focusing on the positive, and being kind always! It is your choice and no one else’s.









"just keep radiating love, since it's the only thing I got."

  





becoming X

Sometimes I wonder if God gives me trials as distraction to move away from what I have been working on; or an opportunity to risk, to throw away everything I’ve trained myself to and cross a different path that MIGHT make me a happier person.  I really don’t know.  All I know is I have been working my ass off on becoming _______ for years.  And it’s been a tough road.  A lot of tears, sacrifices and acceptance had been made to get to where I am now.  And now that I’m close to it, nothing could get in the way.  Just no more distractions / opportunities, please.

I had been giving out happiness and comfort for the longest time.

I think it’s about time to pursue mine.

--o0o—

famous last words:

“Father, if You are willing, please take this cup of

suffering away from me.  Yet I want Your will

Be done, not mine.”

(Luke 22:42)

 

pvd, version 2.012 - starting with this kickass song as soundtrack for this year

Florence and the Machine - Shake It Out

 

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

All of his questions, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a final mess but it's left me so empty
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, for the devil in me
Looking for heaven, for the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

"What we focus on, we empower and enlarge. Good multiplies when focused upon. Negativity multiplies when focused upon. The choice is ours: Which do we want more of?"

- Julia Cameron

your lovelife according to Quiapo.

“Ang mundo ay isang malaking Quiapo.  Maraming snatcher.  Maaagawan ka.  Punong puno rin dito ng iba’t-ibang klase ng paninda.  Kaya ibenta mo ang sarili mo ng tama.  Maraming mang-aalok at magsasabing magagamot ka nila sa ano mang sakit na pinagdadaanan mo – ingat ingat lang at huwag magpapabuyo.  Napakarami ring manghuhula sa kapalaran mo – huwag mong pakikinggan ang idinidikta nila sa iyo.. sundin mo ang nasa puso mo.  Sa Quiapo, marami ka ring makikitang DVD – dami mo talagang mapagpipilian! Merong hard to find, series, you name it – ayun lang, lahat sila peke..  Gusto mo ba ‘yon?

Napakalaki talaga ng Quiapo.  Pero para hindi ka na masaktan, maagawan, masnatch-an, mapeke, maloko, madiktahan at kung ano ano pa man – magsimba ka na lang.  Ipagpasa-Diyos mo na lang ang lahat ng ‘yan.”

of old habits, prolonged imagination and letting go.

dear you,

You know what happens with watching too much TV, reading too much novels and listening to too much of what they tell you?  They sort of take you to that plateau where your imagination takes you ANYWHERE you wanna go.  And it’s so much fun.  You get to be creative and play around.  And then you start to get lost along the way until you finally have lost it – taking you away from being the realist you once was.

oooohlalaland.

You go to work, do your routine, live like a robot – with your head filled with tons of thoughts that remained from your stay in your prolonged imagination.  Suddenly that fine line between imagination and reality got blurred.  Shaken and confused, you didn’t know what to do so you stayed like that for a long time…until things got worse and pain started to come out of it.

expectations vs. reality.

It’s hurting you in all kinds of horrible ways but you didn’t let go.  Because even if it did hurt,  you were happy staying and living in between.  It’s like you’re consumed with pain – and continued on consuming pain because it feeds off of your highs (your lalaland).  You have to get out of it, but you don’t want to.

everything in its right place.

At first, you’re gonna hate yourself for not giving it your all to make it work – “why do I have to let one of my 2 worlds go?”,  you must ask.  Because.  We can only live in one world, this world that is tangible, painful and volatile.  Yes, it’s going to hurt, and it’s going to hurt bad.  But remember that everything you are right now is going to take you where you really belong – and it’s something real, and it’s in this place.  Not in some lalaland you created that was filled with false hopes and broken promises.

And most importantly, watch / read / take everything in moderation, for Pete’s sake.  You’re draining me out of metaphors.

Sincerely,

Your alter ego from the real world

---o0o---

Famous last words:

<all for my muse>

"Thank you for everything.

I’m ready to let go now.

It’s just too sad to realize

I was not even an option in the first place.

Goodbye and have a great life.”