of old habits, prolonged imagination and letting go.

dear you,

You know what happens with watching too much TV, reading too much novels and listening to too much of what they tell you?  They sort of take you to that plateau where your imagination takes you ANYWHERE you wanna go.  And it’s so much fun.  You get to be creative and play around.  And then you start to get lost along the way until you finally have lost it – taking you away from being the realist you once was.

oooohlalaland.

You go to work, do your routine, live like a robot – with your head filled with tons of thoughts that remained from your stay in your prolonged imagination.  Suddenly that fine line between imagination and reality got blurred.  Shaken and confused, you didn’t know what to do so you stayed like that for a long time…until things got worse and pain started to come out of it.

expectations vs. reality.

It’s hurting you in all kinds of horrible ways but you didn’t let go.  Because even if it did hurt,  you were happy staying and living in between.  It’s like you’re consumed with pain – and continued on consuming pain because it feeds off of your highs (your lalaland).  You have to get out of it, but you don’t want to.

everything in its right place.

At first, you’re gonna hate yourself for not giving it your all to make it work – “why do I have to let one of my 2 worlds go?”,  you must ask.  Because.  We can only live in one world, this world that is tangible, painful and volatile.  Yes, it’s going to hurt, and it’s going to hurt bad.  But remember that everything you are right now is going to take you where you really belong – and it’s something real, and it’s in this place.  Not in some lalaland you created that was filled with false hopes and broken promises.

And most importantly, watch / read / take everything in moderation, for Pete’s sake.  You’re draining me out of metaphors.

Sincerely,

Your alter ego from the real world

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Famous last words:

<all for my muse>

"Thank you for everything.

I’m ready to let go now.

It’s just too sad to realize

I was not even an option in the first place.

Goodbye and have a great life.”