it's been a while! don't you just miss our late night talks about my silly lovelife and how confused it made you because i'm alternating like and hate with my colleague who not only friendzoned me but blatantly told me he's into my friend and my cousin? fun times ;)
I did not know how much suffering i was having (and not showing) you before until i read your post about me. I know you only want the best for me but staying by my side was enough already ;)
seeing your old note to me made me realize, hmn, yeah, i was dying every morning with my bright smiling eyes, telling you 'good morning'. I do know how to fake it at that time. but dying - it's a good word. it was numbing yourself of what you were really feeling by living other people's lives, or by physically numbing yourself up.
yes, I remember all those times. everything is so 2011.
but thank you, you made me remember the pain, the struggle and the controlling of emotions i had before.
that was a fun year for me. thank you for understanding. thank you for your love.
and, ardel -- my heart survived ;)
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