5.17.2011

entry written on March, 2007

the past few weeks we’ve been watching Ally Mcbeal (marathon ito!) and i just realized, the Ally character in season 1 had a big influence on me!! i better not get into deatails.  Well, maybe because I was watching it while I was in my "defining years".


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I just remembered something.  I once had that "addicted-to-chatting" phase when i was in college.  it didn’t last, though, for i wasan’t that rich.  There’s this one time (not in bandcamp hahaha), i was in some YM chatroom, when somoene popped up and asked me, very politely, if i could let him see me on the webcam, and let him look at me until he, uh, until he’s done, yes, having sex with himself.  since he asked me nicely, i let him. he even thanked me after he’s done. what a nice young boy harharhar.  i also had a lesbian  chatmate.. a very beautiful Romanian lesbian chatmate (ye, mamatay kayo sa inggit hehehe). one time, while i was at the office, she asked me to open her webcam, and when my officemate and i clicked it, we saw her taking her clothes off!  if only my officemate wasn’t there, i’d finish what i started..hehehe kinky :P  she’s so pretty, i even thought that at first, she just used some Romanian actress on her photo/avatar just to attract chatters.  now i know better.  her yahoo ID? i’ll never tell.  she’s mine hahahaha joke.


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I’m starting to really not think at all.  i feel like, for the past year, all i did was "go with the fuckin’ flow".  now i feel so stagnant.  what is wrong here? i thought i’m starting to get better?  i so need a therapist.  or a sedative.


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Because i am watching Ally again, this idea of "not ever having to" is getting n my nerve again.  Help.

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