the past

do you get that “flashes” of your past that makes you think if it really did happen, or it was just an act-out scene in your childhood that you kept on thinking until you don’t remember if it actually did happen? i have that.  this one scene.  i was not sure if that “scene” actually happen.  but that that past created a big black hole in what i have become.  even if i am not that sure about that scene, it still scares the sh*t out of me.  i want that past buried, but it keeps creeping out.  i wished it didn’t really happen.  the more i think of it, details gets clearer, and i am getting more and more scared of it.  i want that flashes to stop.  but if it didn’t, i hope it was just my over imaginative thoughts when i was young.