holymotherf***ingBIKE!

task number 2 done.

everybody says "i'm fine".

well, we all do.  and if you care enough about someone, you'd ask that person "how are you?" and then wait for the response, give follow up questions until the person opens up.

whenever i wake up in the mornig feeling down, i cheer myself up with doing the things i love to do - listen to feel good music and sing along with it.  i think of ways to be happy and i'd do it rather than think of the memories that have played in my mind for a gazillion times already.

happiness is just a state of mind. it is not a phase.  you decide on it.

what else do i do to be happy (or at least look like it)?  i smile.  like what i've said before - a sincere smile is contagious.  sometimes your smile could brighten up someone else's day as well.

and - lastly - i work so hard.  i may not look like it but i am a workaholic.  i am dead serious at work.  it's because getting a praise for a job well done gives me a different kind of high.  i love this job so much even if we are on a constant pressure.

so, don't worry about what kind of emoshit i've been going through right now.  you don't have to dig in deep to know if i'm doing just fine.  i am fine.  i have decided on it already. :)

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famous last words:

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

-- Meet Joe Black

i am not gay. i am not bi. i am not a dude.

"God gave me this big ears to listen to your every rant; broad shoulders so you can put your head on it anytime you want; and big hands to hold you if you're down.  how many times do i have to tell you this? of you ever feel lonely -- you know where to find me."

(i have always wished you really liked me and not just my idiosyncrasies.)

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this always happens to me - men get so comfortable around me they unconsciously treat me like a dude as well.  i don't know what is it that i have to do so that everyone could see me as a woman.  o sometimes relate myself to that lady football coach in glee. only she is older. hahaha

it's sometimes hurtful when male friends tease me about being 'one of them', it feels like my dress-wearing was not enough to make me look like a girl.  geez.

oh well, what's done is done.

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famous last words:

"I don't want us to be friends.  I've got tons of friends already, you gutless schmuck you."

my kind of a love letter

oooh, you set my soul on fire.

click this link for your listening pleasure

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Meet me on the Equinox  (Death Cab for Cutie)

Meet me on the Equinox
Meet me half way
When the sun is perched at it's highest peek
In the middle of the day

Let me give my love to you
Let me take your hand
As we walk in the dimming light
Oh darling understand

That everything, everything ends
That everything, everything ends

Meet me on your best behavior
Meet me at your worst
For there will be no stone unturned
Or bubble left to burst

Let me lay beside you, Darling
Let me be your man
And let our bodies intertwine
But always understand

That everything, everything ends
That everything, everything ends
That everything, everything, everything ends

A window
An opened tomb
The sun crawls
Across your bedroom
A halo
A waiting room
Your last breaths
Moving through you

As everything, everything ends
As everything, everything ends
As everything, everything, everything
Everything, everything, everything ends

Meet me on the Equinox
Meet me half way
When the sun is perched at it's highest peek
In the middle of the day

Let me give my love to you
Let me take your hand
As we walk in the dimming light
Oh darling understand

That everything, everything ends

i'm back to secretzen lurking!

this is why i love manix abrera.

** i LOVE his humor.