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| Lean Ansing |
1.30.2011
1.28.2011
you tell 'em, armi.
kagabi, di matapos-tapos ang nobelang binubuo sa mumunting isipan ko. kakitiran - namimilit pang mangatuwiran; iniipon ang mga pagkakataon sa isang sulok at pinagdurugtong dugtong. -- huli na ang lahat para bawiin ang hindi nararapat. ano ba? umayos ka - wala nang magagawa sa nahuli na, at tayong dalawa.
urong-sulong na lang ba? bakit ako na lamang ang natitira?
urong-sulong na lang ba? bakit ako na lamang ang natitira?
kasalanan mo ang lahat ng ito. bakit ako ang pinapabayad mo?
nagtataka ako -- bakit siya ang pinili mo?
UpDharma Down - Taya --> click this link to see the vid
the antidote to 7 deadly sins =D
you don't need power, money or fame. you just have to be equipped with these - and everything else will follow.
Tolerance. this means adjusting your pace to every person you encounter because every one is different so you have to treat them according to their character / needs. everyone has quirks. and it is tolerance that will kepp you from not getting angry all the time.
Passion. if you have it, you do things happily, whole-heartedly.
Sensitivity. being cautious to the environment. being cautious to what you might say or do because it could impact or hurt others.
Humility. you let others shine, when needed. humility is hard to find these days, specially in this world full of egoistic, self-centerd kids.
Faith. you can get anything you ask God for - you just got to have a huge amount of faith, and the effort in claiming it.
Selflessness. this could go as much as giving your time to others, the ability to be patient and to listen genuinely. it is great to make others feel special, important.
Love. if you have love, you do everythinh out of love. anything you say will all be words of love. when you have love, you always want to be a better person, not just for someone but for everyone.
(**not claiming everything - some of the characteristics came from another blog, from a different topic.)
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famous last words:
"I live for the thrils. I live for the glamour. These are the things that make me." (Carlos Malvar)
the dream of someone else.
my heart beats for someone. it's been years since i've allowed myself to fall again. the last guy i tried to like crushed my soul. i just healed (i did??!) by accepting defeat, knowing he's just not that into me, that i am not good enough for him.
and now, i am so glad he came along exactly when i was ready. he gets me. he still likes me inspite of my idiosyncrasies. and he knows exactly when to hold me. i love the person that i am when i am with him, for when i'm around him, he lets me be me. all freedom. no pretensions.
yep, my heart beats for someone. without hesitation, without guilt. i have fallen in love and it felt so f*cking good.
not only it felt great, but after meeting him, i found myself making efforts to be a better version of me (even if a already am enough for him). my decision to change for the better came to me so easy.
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famous last words:
*that post above. it doesn't sound right. hahaha. it's been ages and i want to feel it again. and this starts by welcoming the thought of falling in love again. yihee.
ebelove
"magpapaalam na sayo ang aking kwarto..." (-Kwarto)
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Ebe Dancel leaving Sugarfree broke my heart. their songs have been my soundtrack since they've started:
*burnout / cuida / unang araw / still fighting it / kwarto / makita kang muli / wag ka nang umiyak / feels like love
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but i understand if he wants out for his musical growth. see, if you're in a band, you'd have to consider your bandmates' inputs. there are musicians who wants to produce everything their way. i think that's what Rico Blanco did. he wants total control of his music.
at the same time, i am also excited to what Ebe has to offer as a solo artist. now, the question: who's going to replace him, then?? Vin? or Kris (wouldn't it be cool if a lady's going to sing sugarfree)?
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famous last words:
"Sa dinami dami ba naman ng gustong malimutan / Ikaw pa ang naiwan sa puso’t isipan." (- Hangover)
note to self: this is NOT an online diary.
(life update. written inside Wendy's Makati Ave.)
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Capone's - something new. i went there to see something new, and to feed my audio and visual sensory. kidding. again, the people were beautiful. it was like Mag:net - high street. that night, there was a private party for the Webbs. i saw Pinky. too bad i didin't get to see Hubert. hahaa. that would've made my night. the place was jampacked because of General Luna. they have a huge following. mostly male, for obvious reasons.
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i was there, alone, feeling the vibe when this guy beside me kept on glancing at me (saw it through my peripheral). i got curious so i looked at him - and when i saw his face i cursed again. "**********ina ang gwapo pala. ang ganda ko siguro sa dim light kaya ako tinitingnan nito." and being the OLATS that i am, i didn't look again. i even moved away.
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(another pach update)
this coming weeks, my head's going to be intoxicated in all aspects. so, i'm going to need all the reinforcements that i could get:
- coffee
- gigs
- events
- friends
- serendra / st. clare / eastwood
- booze (but not for me)
i want to be ridiculously happy.
i want to fill my head with important things.
i want to be restless.
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(yet another update. last na 'to)
writing is not easy. every posts requires your blood, sweat and tears. but this is my passion, my calling - so i ain't stopping. and when you hear people say nice things about what i write about, my heart soars. it feeds my soul. so, from the bottom of my fucked-up heart, i thank ALL of you who have read it. promise i will keep on entertaining you. even at my expense hahaaha <3
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famous last words:
"i wish i had a heart as cold as yours. maybe, then, life will be easy on me."
(moi)
1.04.2011
currently i'm feeling...
Even the words do what I say, oh babe, got to get away
To be impossible, isn't that difficult
In the city you're invisible, when you come from a small town
Everything is all right, everything is all right
I'm not your baby, please
A tourist in a traffic jam, baby sham and handy cam
I'm not your mother, you're not my man, I'm not your baby
Don't treat me like I'm a trick, I won't treat you like you're a prick
Don't need no doctor, I'm not ill, I'm not your baby
Everything is all right, everything is all right
I'm not your baby, please
Cut out the poetry, lets hit the main artery
No time for a tourniquet, the colors all run out of me
You brought me all kinds of goods, now my heart is so full up it hurts
It's heavy as a shopping bag, it's full of things I should give back
Everything is all right, everything is all right
I'm not your baby, please
I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
Don't want you to cover me, smother me or mother me
I like to feel this incomplete, I'm not your baby
Everything is all right, everything is all right
I'm not your baby, please
Not dizzy, just busy, didn't drink nothing fizzy
No pills to feel easy, don't know what got into me
Daylight's a kind of robbery, the night is your geography
So you're not white, you're pink and rosy
You could be right, but you're way above me
Me, I'm in recovery, a star of pornography
I'm a tourist, there's a lot to see
You don't like the photographs of me
So you've got a lot to say
You don't sleep around, but sometimes you stray
You don't believe, often times you pray
For something, what is it babe
Don't treat me like I'm a trick, I won't treat you like you're a prick
Don't need no doctor, I'm not sick, I'm not your baby
Everything is all right, everything is all right
I'm not your baby, please
I'm not your baby, I'm not your baby, I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby, I'm not your baby, I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special
But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh
She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here...
does your bubble pop?
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| my kind of a getawaaaaay! =) |
sometimes, i just have to go away when things around me are getting crazy. i need at least a day - just to run away, pop, and let shit out. ALONE. in a beautiful place.
my emotions cannot be repressed anymore. :(
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famous last words:
"all these fuss, for what?!"
1.02.2011
yearender
these are the ten things i have learned the past year:
10. it's bad to be sleep-deprived for days. it messes up my routine.
09. when you're an optimist, you get more courage to do the things you want - however, the result of it is sometimes hurtful. so being cynical means being a coward and just staying stuck on the safe side.
08. i have realized that i have to be submissive when needed.
07. yes, i so want to travel abroad and experience first-hand the world culture but my life does not permit me to. so i just have to be contented browsing books and the net. goodbye, germany. goodbye, italy. goodbye, peru.
06. last year, people around me made me realize that i am a chickenshit when it comes to expressing my feelings. boo-hoo.
05. that it is easy to let go of something if you just decide on it.
04. decisions are best made if you first sleep on it.
03. family has always been a top priority but what i do is always not enough. so i just have to push myself more, and care for them some more.
02. love is just a series of chemical reactions in your brain. so the next time you think you're in love, think again. maybe you are just smelling his/her pheromones... =D
01. whether it's just 3 persons or a whole community you are trying to reach out, it is important that you exert the same amount of effort to them if inspiring really is your passion.
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famous last words:
"Death is confusing; lifemore confusing still."
How to Save Your Own Life
(the wit and wisdom of Isadora Wing)
1. renounce useless guilt.
2. don't make a cult of suffering.
3. live in the Now (or at least the Soon).
4. always do the things you fear the most;
courage is an acquired taste, like caviar.
5. trust all joy.
6. if the evil eye fixes you in its gaze,
look elsewhere.
7. get ready to be eighty-seven.
(taken from Erica Jong's 'How to Save Your Own Life)
-have pen, will rant.
This passion for writing has never left me.
and I want to write again with something inspiring,
something useful
(because my thoughts of you are not).
So please, please, please
leave my peripheral vision and my subconscious.
Leave me alone --
let me be.
You are sucking me dry of all my energy.
(-have pen, will rant.)
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famous last words:
"There are people in this world who are joyful and they always seem to have more energy than the rest of us. This is because they don't use it all up on repression and self-delusion. Being miserable is not a hobby, but a full-time job.."
the Sex Talk
(come on, pach, keep talking like you knew what you're talking about! harharhar)
* "For most women, the attraction to bad boys usually happens over a 2-3 day period when she is ovulating. her body craves a Russel Crowe bad-guy type because aggressive men have a greater survival rating than nice guys - and she wants his genes."
*"Sex is around ten times more effective as a tranquilizer than valium."
*"The more often you have sex, the more sex you will be offered. a sexually active body secretes large quantities of pheromones. these subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy."
*"Women cannot enjoy sex unless they are relaxed and free from worries and distractions."
*"What men really want? sex. basic services (food, washing, mothering, etc). to be loved, and solitary time."
*"Orgasms release endorphin, aka, the happy hormone, burns calories and improves blood circulation! now, who wouldn't want that?"
(sources: PDI, Why Men Want Sex and Women Need Love
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famous LUST words:
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