dr.love is not the solution, she's just a listener.

the happiness pandemic

(repost)

the World Welness Organization lists 12 symptoms of the happiness pandemic:

1 - people are “guided by intuition, not fear, forced ideas and pre-conceived behavior.

2 - they experience “a total lost of interest in judging others and things that create conflict”.

3 - the most serious symptom of the disease: “a complete loss of the capacity to worry.”

4 - finding “continual pleasure in appreciating humans” and experiencing a “weakening of the tendency to want to change others”.

5 - an increased ability in individuals to “facilitate emotions and promote health, creativity and love”.

6 - “repetitive attacks of  smiling”.

7 - the onset of  childlike behavior that produces laughter and happiness.

8 - growth in new ageism: “communicating with one’s soul in non-duality so as to create pleasant feelings of fulfillment and joy within”.

9 - becoming “healers who sun criticism and indifference and spread joy and light.”

10- the “ability to live alone, as a couple or with family or community on the basis of equality”.

11- a “feeling of responsibility and joy, sharing one’s dreams of abundance, harmony and peace with the world”.

12- finally, “the total acceptance of one’s own presence on earth and the will to choose each moment for what is gracious, good, truthful and alive.”

lutang (post from my friendster account, written a year ago)

mahirap ding magtagal sa estado ng pagkalutang.  tinatabunan mo ang sarili mong struggle sa pagtulong sa struggle ng iba.  habang yung problema mo naman, hindi nawawala.  at least hindi mo naiisip.  wala ka rin namang masabihan, kasi pakiramdam mo yung problema mo walang kwenta kaya hindi rin pakikinggan.  pitong taon ko yan pinagdaanan.  ng walang nakaalam. ayoko rin naman ng may naaabala sa akin.  so, nag-manifest ang tinatago ko physically - chest pains.   dati, may mga umaga na hindi ako makabangon kasi parang dinadaganan ng dalawang kamay yun dibdib ko.  hindi ako makabangon, naiiyak na lang ako.  OA na kung OA, pero totoo yon.  wala kasing channeling pain sa buhay ko noon.  tipong “the one you never had was the one you loved the most”.  feeling ko pa dati ako lang yun taong pinaka magmamahal sa kanya.

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minsan din naman masarap maglutang.  pero hindi sya dapat pinatatagal.  dun kasi nagsisimula ang pagwawasak.

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ang alam ko yun pitong taon na yon may mga nagawa rin naman akong makabuluhan, ayun lang hindi ko sila inintindi.  puro pag-iinda lang ng sakit yun naaalala ko.  lahat yon maliwanag pa rin sa akin.

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sinasabi ko na ang lahat ng ito hindi para maging emo - gusto ko lang makatulong.  hindi sinasarili ang problema.  shared pain is lessened pain.  please lang, huwag nyo na akong tularan.

viva singledom!

PROS:

being single for a looooooong time did a lot of good things to me.  the most important of them - it made me independent.  waaay too independent, actually.  i don’t need a man to take care of me, that’s what i got used to think of.

time - having time for myself helped a lot in knowing the real me - with no influences whatsoever.  i have time to explore my mind and get more creative and productive with my life. there is happiness in solidarity.

it never made me “assumera”.  sometimes i could have a reason to think twice, but when it enters my mind, i never entertain it for a long time.  just like hope, it stays for a while but i kill it afterwards.  so until a guy hasn’t said anything to me yet, imma keep that friendly vibe around.

it made me tougher.  sometimes i wonder what it feels like to be a bratty little girlie weakling  who whines about the tiniest of things.  maybe life would be easier on me if i complain a lot and let others feel uneasy until they do something about what i’ve been complaining about. 

the single life is fun because you have no expectations - you just do the things you do and enjoy!  i got time to help others.  nobody owns me but the universe.  when the time comes that i will have someone, i’m pretty sure he’d understand what i mean when i say i want a life on my own.  we’d be just two souls out to explore each other’s universe, not create our own world and live in it.  he’s had a life before me and i’m not taking it away from him. 

truth is, there are things you cannot do when you’re with someone so while you’re still single - mingle, damn it! enjoy! go crazy  

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CONS

independence may be a great thing, but sometimes it gives off a wrong signal to men.  it makes them feel like we don’t need them around anymore.  it’s just that, i never needed anyone to do stuff for me, or make me feel secure.  it’s the companionship that’s what matters to me.  keywords: compatibility and wavelength.  that’s all i want.

and time sometimes could be an issue.  since i have been single, the things i do are always fixed.  my routine.  i’m so used to being alone - i’ve gotten too comfortable.  i’m not used to spending time with too many people.  i’m not used to giving my time on a man. 

not assuming leads to me being clueless, or just plain stupid.  in case you don’t know, i’m beneath the signals anymore,  i’m like a guy - so give it to me straight.  tell it to my face.  because i used to like reading minds but now i just don’t have the time for it. 

being too tough is also a problem.  just like being too independent, having a tough heart is a dilemma.  it has given me this aura that i am too stubborn.  or this aura that i’m too tough they treat me like a guy as well.  high fives involved. 

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but what’s so wrong with being single?

you just do the things you do to reach your goal while at the same time preparing yourself to be a better person when the right one comes along.

if he ever comes.

(*ang ganda na sana sabay naging pessimist sa last sentence.  pambasag lang)

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famous last words:

“if only i could tell you how different you are with the rest of them.”

life as a doctor

being a ‘love doctor’ requires a lot of my time and energy.  but i actually benefit more than my clients.
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my time is used up better than before.  i am always on call.  i’d have to be ready when my clients need me.  i’m more useful this way.  i’d love to help than spend my time daydreaming.
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my patience is maxed out, though.  but it’s all good.  i need a bucketful of those because i’m gonna have to endure the process of hearing the same stories over and over and over again.
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wit. glad i still have it.  i need wit to give the right kind of advices best suited to my every client.
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dr. love’s general perscription:
“when you already know your problem, all you have to do is decide on what you should do about it - because the consequences of your decision are already set.  decide wisely, you already know what’s right from wrong STOP OVERTHINKING - the universe has given us a lot of things to think about.  i know madness is fun, but please do not prolong your agony.  it’s not healthy.”
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love is an action word.  it is never complicated.
it’s just that, people are.
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at the end of the day, it’s still their choice to make.



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famous last words:
“love makes us cast aside our pride, logic, and
everything else that gets in the way.”  (dr.love)

Berlin is full of art, history and madness. meet the man i would marry in a heartbeat.

vive le resistence!

sorry for not posting something here for a long time.

• my drafts are all too personal to publish.  so much for expressing.  i'm resisting, fighting the urge to pour out my emotions here.

• this blog is meant to entertain, inspire and amuse (yikes).  but this past month i haven't got the strength to do so.  problems, pressure and pain consumed me so bad.

• i may have written stuff for this site but i didn't have the time to post them.

again, my apologies. loveyouall <3

with everything that has happened to me, giving up was never my option.  God is good, He will get us through this. thanks for all your prayers and kind words.  you know who you are. 

xxp

B.C.

oh, how i love my cat.

he is what i think of when i wake up and before i go to bed.

i am always checking up on him whenever i had the chance.

yes, he had given me scars before (still there) but i know he didn't mean to.

generally, he is nice, lovable and a playful cat.

these days cat seemed different.  i guess he is turning to be a full-grown cat. 

he's turning out to be a better cat than before...

and i loved him more and more.

my cat doesn't know how much i appreciate how he cheers me up 

just by being there.

he is my source of happiness.

when i want to be amused, he's always around.

i have loved cats before and i have loved them better.  maybe because they were more domesticated.  

i hope you being a stray cat is nothing but a phase.

everyone knows how much i value my cat.  

if only i could hug him at every chance i could get.

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famous last words:

"turns out i realized i am in love with you.  this is different than the first one.  and to think i am just at the beginning of loving you."

blame it on ally mcbeal reruns.

Chances Are (click this to listen to the track)

Chances are you'll find me
Somewhere on your road tonight
Seems I always end up driving by
Ever since I've known you
It just seems you're on my way
All the rules of logic don't apply

I long to see you in the night
Be with you 'til morning light

I remember clearly how you looked
The night we met
I recall your laughter and your smile
I remember how you made me
Feel so at ease
I remember all your grace, your style

And now you're all I long to see
You've come to mean so much to me

Chances are I'll see you
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer
All I have

You're the only one I can't forget
Baby you're the best, I've ever met

And I'll be dreaming of the future
And hoping you'll be by my side
And in the morning I'll be longing
For the night, for the night

Chances are I'll see you
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer
All I have

You're the only one I can't forget
Baby you're the best I've ever met.

how to be a rockstar's girl (and keep it)

admit it, ladies.  at one point in in your lives you dreamed of dating a rockstar.  thee is a cartain kind of prestige that comes with it.  it's like having a trophy boyfriend.  so, to snag one, or to keep the relationship stronger, here are your pointers:

don't just know rock and roll, live in it.  rock and roll is not just about music, it's a lifestyle.  get used to the late night gigs and the afterparties - all night, every night.

confidence - and by that i meant HIS.  rockstars are artists by nature - so there will come a time when they will feel insecure and doubt on their music as well.  questions will be raised like, "what if the audience won't like our new material?" you just have to be there, give out a great encouragement speech and boost up their confidence when needed.

confidence - and by that i meant YOURS.  rockstars.  fanbase.  mostly female.  you get the idea.  the thing is, some ladies will will always try to work their way to get noticed by your man, so you gotta do the things you gotta do to keep your man.  always try to look and enbody the vibe of being the lady that this rockstar picked.  always work up on your confidence because i gotta tell ya -  they have the luxury of being the bratty one, not you.

rockstars don't just enjoy rock music, they enjoy other genres as well.  you need to be the girl who knows much about music - be it mainstream or indie; pop or downtempo.  music must also be your passion.  rockstars listen to different kinds of music to get inspiration for their own music.  so maybe you could do some research and introduce your man to uncommercialized musicians. 

work up on your jealousy.  come on, everybody gets jealous.  specially when you have a rockstar for a boyfriend - screaming ladies will annoy you.  what more with groupies?  so always keep your cool, your boyfriend doesn't want a jealous nagging girlfriend.

lastly, don't forget your tagline after every gig: "great set! you were really good up there."

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remember, when it comes to rockstars, your relationship is mostly going to be more about them than the 2 of you.  you have got to accept it from the start.  it comes with the prestige. =)