never in a million miles, years or men

Been having the same troubles with my partner for a long time now. The last time he did it again (no, he was not cheating) - I was so fuming mad, but I slept it all off.

But then again, my subconscious was so worked up I dreamt a very bad dream - that I was cheating (no sex involved, but just me seeing another guy who is also taken). I felt sick waking up. 

I went up and saw my boyfriend on the side of the beach. I just sat beside him and stayed quiet.
I so wanted to tell him, but it was just a dream.

(What worries me then, you now ask.)
What worries me is that I had thought of it (even just in a dream).
Meaning.. I think I can do it, if I ever wanted it.

But to reassure anyone, it is not in my wildest dream to make that kind of mistake.
It might also mean that I only have thought of that as a resort to our recurring problem. Maybe it will help, maybe it won't. But I don't want to ever try or know.

I just had to share.

-xxp