10.20.2010

for once upon a time in my life

(because we just finished "Heroes" marathon…it got me inspired)


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Chapter 3: "Parallel Universe"
There’s this parallel universe I sometimes visit, it’s like that "parallel universe" thingamajig in that movie of Leo.  My subconscious takes me there, here I have this…well it’s just a happy place.  In that world, I get to experience all of my "what ifs".  It’s where illusions/fantasies are played longer than it should’ve been; frustrations become successes; and ideals? "it’s all happening!"  It’s actually kind o fun to play around in that place–then get back to my lousy job and lousy life.  Oh, yes, people, you got it right–this is yet one of my escapes.

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"Chapter 1: "The Sting"
The sting of unrequited love doesn’t go away.  I feel it every time I breathe.  What does it take?  It took me years to finally understand  why I can’t  move on.  Like I’ve said before, the thing I have for him is undying, and I have to live with it.  It’s a very hard decision to take; kaya mo bang tanggapin sa sarili mo na hindi mo na kayang magmahal uli? hindi dahil ayaw mo na, pero dahil hindi na talaga kaya…it took me 3years to really give up.

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Chapter 4: "The So-Called Life"
So, my normal life consists of work, internet, TV and sleep.  Getting up at 530am and going home at 930pm, everyday, day by day.  Sleep at around midnight and convince myself that tomorrow is a new day, and maybe that day will be a lot different.  So much for a routine, huh?

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Chapter 2: "The Aftermath"
Have you ever felt this numbness where everything around you seemed pointless, so not a big deal?  I have only been living out of reflexes, out of responds to the outside environment.  I laugh when someone gets funny, but it doesn’t mean I am happy.  But I have come to terms with it.  Pain and me, we’re inseparable.  We’re tight.


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So, here’s my parting words:
"Never listen to a person who just had a sedative." harharharrrr

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