10.20.2010

if you could read this

(i know in my gut you’ve seen this blog. keep on reading, luv.)

she and i , we talked about you. she left you a message to which you did not respond. you opened her profile and i am guessing you’ve seen mine–which leads you here. ta-daah!!
(i am just assuming but the probability is high)
enjoying my blogposts? you see how i create different kinds of fiction out of you? it drained the sh*t out of me but it was fun.

i don’t exactly know what happened before (i was blocking out thoughts that did not involve me and you, that’s my excuse).
but for what it’s worth — I AM SORRY. mostly because i was never good enough for you. and that i loved too much. i am so sorry.

i could see now that you are happy. good for you. and if ever i write about you again (pretty sure i will), please ignore my vents. all of these wasn’t written out of bitterness; it’s just that you have been my muse for the longest time.
goodluck on your career.
goodbye and take care, my forever scapegoat.
—o0o—
famous last words:
“denial.anger.bargaining.depression.acceptance. congratulations, pach. you’ve made it through. you can now leave the program.”

*this entry goes out to tinay. i know you read this. peborit mong kulay pa, o. hahaha. kiss nellica for me.
i hope you liked my pangtitrip sa past ko hahaha. finally i could play words around him na =)

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